6.FEB.2005

Chinese New year is like 3 days away!!

The more i think of it the more scared i become

I don't know why

Till now i just could not forget and let it go

i just can't

As usual every sunday i go to church

And everytime i would pray for well....the same old things i suppose

As i expected, there wasn't much customers at Gelare today at night.

Nothing exciting or intresting at work today though.

But before i went to work i went to ride bicycle with weijie agin round the resoviour.

Is such a boring day anyway.

by the time i reach home after work is also like so late so yar

I guess thats for today

*OUT*

5.FEB.2005

The angels of inmost heaven are naked,

Because they are in innocence and nakedness corresponds to innocence.

~~Emanuel Swedenborg~~

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Today was kind of fun actually.

My whole familywas making Egg roll.

You know that chinese new year tibits.

Is so nice to eat what you have made, just so nice.

It is also very nice cause my family get to be together.

Is only stuff like this that always bond us together.

The way we make those egg rolls are simple but troublsome.

Very troublesome

A batter was made and we will put like one table spoon of batter on this scissors like stuff with patterns on it and we will flatten the batter and put it on the Hot charcoal.

Then we just like sit there in my kitchen and flip the thing like satay.

When is done , we scrap of the thin layer then pass to another person to roll it before it hardens.

So tiring but fun!

I and my brother were like making those egg rolls while my sister roll them and put it in a container.

Some were white

Some were brown

Some were just simply black

The rolls come in different shape and sizes toO haha.

We were really lousy at it.

Anyway it wasn't long when i left for work.

i was so late!!

I thought i start at 3 but i 'm suppose to start at 2pm!!

What a rush

Anyway i wasn't scolded cause is one of my less fierce supervisers

Phew...

At work today, some girl name Hazel who likes a butch, kept pointing knifes at me.

Whats with her!?

She kept hitting my cap.

Obviously i retaliated, i hit her cap too.

So there was rivary

All the way.....until i left of course

Haha by the way her belt broke and she got to go get a new one just downstairs at Basement 2.

When i reach home is like so late

*The End*

4.FEB.2005

Laura was sitting on the ledge beside me,

Humming to herself complacently,

Secure in the conviction that everything was alright really and the angels on her side,

Because she'd made some secret,

Dotty pact with God

~~Margret Atwood, The Blind Assassin~~

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Back to work. Strated at 11 in the morning to 5pm.

In the end my manager ask me to work till 7pm.

What the hack, so i work to earn a few extra cash$$

Today we got to see how new uniform.

What a joke!

The uniform well.....turn out nicer than i had expected. I actually like the new shirt.

BUT

The cap turn out to be Much Much MUCH worse than i expected.

is worst than those tourists cap.

Is....is.....like some AraBian Cap!! YuCksS!!

Even my manager , Troy, wanted to ask if we can just leave the cap aside.

She herself understands that it is just ToO BlEaHEeeA...

Antway i spent most of the time eating that day.

I ate koropok that my mum made and i brought some to share with them.

I ate kaya bread and cold milo that my manager bought for me.

I ate waffle with ice cream with many many whip cream.

well.....i just kept eating.....

At work my manager also talk to us about what her BigGest of the Big BIG boss had done.

Her plans to open another francise called the American Chille.

Oh yAr!! Two people quit and one superviser was sack!!

Can u beleive it!!

The superviser, Siti, half malay half chinese was sack because she serve a not fully cook chicken!!

Not only That!

She even made a bad service Unfrotunatly to my BigGest of the Big BIG Boss FRIEND!!

Just her FRIEND!!!

So she Kana haiz....sad

Anyway after work i was trying to rush back home so that i could go for Rosery(some sort of praying stuff)

There was a slight trafficjam at Chinatown though

But i manage to reach in time unchanged and stinky to my dads friend's place.

So i prayed and prayed till after rosary we read something in the Bible that was kind of inspiring.

That was the only special thing that happened to me on that day and that is to get to knoe that chapter Tiltled as

"Salt and Light"

And is goes like this

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""You are like salt for all mankind.

But if salt loses it's saltiness,

There is no way to make it salty again.

It has become worthless,

So it is thrown out and people trample on it""

""You are like light for the whole world. A city built on a hill cannot be hid.

No one lights a lamp and puts it under a bowl;

Instead he puts it on the lampstand,

Where it gives light for everyone in the house.

In the same way your light must shine before people,

So that they will see the good things you do and praise your Father in heaven""

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*So i guess thats how i end my day when i got home*

3.FEB.2005

May our joys be deep and our wounds be sacred.

Post angels to protect us, Lord,from the demons that would divide our hearts.

Now and forever

AMEN

~~Marianne Williamson, Illuminated Prayers~~

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Like i said today i went to Singapore Polytechnic with mervin.

In the end some things caught up and i got to follow him to his work place to get his pay first before we go to SP.

His work place is like right below this raffles hotel building.

Going down the stairs and into the building reminds me of titanic.

The different compartments, the walkways the walls makes it seems really like you are inside titanic and of course, i get this bad feeling that water will just flood this whole area and we will all gonna DIE.

Anyway we met Gabriel but later left after we found out we got to come back at abt 2.30.

SO

We went to HMV, listen to some classical songs, funny songs, weird songs and of course, to chesck out the SpongeBob Square Pants Sound track!! it was so CooL.

Leaving with another hour, we went to esplanade library.

It was so fuuny there.

We read some book about all the girls James Bond had acted with!

There was this shelf with scripts of movies that we went to take a lookas well.

We took Toy Story, Matrix and one in particular.

~AUSTIN POWERS~

The script of that show really make us laugh till our lungs out!

Soon after that we head back for his pay of course.

It was so long till his pay was delivered to him.

I got to line up for him and Gabriel to get their pay!! what the!

Well thats not the case.

It turn out that there wasn't much timeand so we only took a glance at SP

Then we went to Gabriels house to get some Munchies.

HEY!! i was hungry!! i'm a growing boy!!

Later we went to play Warcraft in Aloha (cyber cafe)

Well we drag...and i ended not having time for basketball.

Now here i am typing

And typing and typing and typing and typing and..

OK

~I'll stop here~

2.FEB.2005

Though the angel is rational,

intelligent,

and possesing of free will,

it is changeable,

since all created things are mutable,

and thus it has the potentiality either to improve or to turn toward evil.

It cannot feel repentance because it is incorporeal:

Only through the weakness of his body can man repent

~~John of Damascus~~

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Finally an off day today. No work, just laze around at home, surf the net play games and chat on MsN.

What a day.

Again i went for basketball early in the morning, u know, i cannot miss it, is a must to grow tall yar. Unfortunatly i was kind of late but nevermind, i was engross in my game anyway.

But hey!

i still went!! one hour of basketball as usual!!

And since today i 'm off, i decided to go for some extra excercise.

I went for a ride on my Bicycle with weijie all the way to Jurong east just to get some CDs so that he could burn Some stuff from my computer.

Well in the end it didn't work out the way he wanted though.

To0 bad.

Anyway, i met mervin on the MsN today, got his picture change.

What a guy, so saddist like we always call it

...ChucKy...

We plan to go for the Singapore Polytechnic open house tomorrow.

Okay, i guess i can't wait for tomorrow BUT i really couldn't wait for the other open house that i'm going to that happens on the 17 of Feburary though.

Haiz....like i said...i really got to keep myself occupied to stop myself from thinking too much,

u know what

and like i said , half of my day was spent on my computer.

Guess i'll end of here then.

1.FEB.2005

As usual i went to work today.

There wasn't much customer today although it is waffle day.

Customers of Gelare are so weird all the time.

The best thing today was that i saw all my supervisers IC.

One particular superviser by the name of chris made my day, his IC was the most funniest!!.

He had those old fashioned Spectecles that were so gigantic that the lens could touch his cheeks and his forehead at both ends!!.

What a joke!!

Some lame jokes were made as well, for example

Why th plane jerk in the mits of landing when the pilot is an indian,

What happen to a greenbeen when it falls from a ten story building and

What happen to a redbeen when it sees a ghost

......LAME......

Anyway i get to have Waffle still with four towering whip creams plus my fravourite ice-cream rite in the middle

...JAMICAN CHOCOLATE...

sooooo yummy!! it was just a few hrs after that wonderful meal that i end work and head home.

Journeying home on the bus really sucks.

Furthermore i was alone....being alone makes me think of.....and the more i think the harder it felt.

My heart never fails to turn heavy every sec i think of it.

All i want is to quickly reach home and keep myself occupied

~every hour~

~every minute~

~every second~

I could not go church today as well cause i reach home too late as mass starts at 6.30pm.

Couldn't play basketball cause courts were full.

Guess today wasn't any better at all.

And it seems that never it will be better.

.....well well.....

I still have tomorrow.

The day after and after and after and after and after and

.............................

I really miss those times,

Those memories.

31.JAN.2005

I have no idea wat had gotten into me this few days.

Especially today.

I went to work in the morning, came back and left home to play basketball.

In the mits of playing basketball, some kid came and stand there just to see me play.

Something felt fishy of course.

I knew he wanted to steal my stuff.

Sure enough, as soon as i turned back to the other half of the court.

He stole my handphone and ran.

As soon as i knew he stole my handphone i chased after him.

At this moment i just didn't know why but i just kept telling myself.

I musn't lose that phone.

Many many memories and important stuff that means alot to me is in there.

If i lose them, i will never get them back

......as i ran i nearly cried.......

afraid i might never get it back.

Not my phone

But instead

what that was kept in there.

Sure enough i chaught up with him.

I nearly wanted to beat him but

The fear of losing my phone made my heart beat fast.

Real fast

So fast that i couldn't careless

Just wanted my phone back

I demanded for my phone and i got it back

....i was relieve....

so relieved that

that

.....i could not explained....

Immediately

I checked my inbox.

I went to church after my dinner.

Holy cross church of course. it was quiet....just so quiet. All alone with god,

........I Prayed........

Prayed for my friend

Prayed for myself

lastly i prayed for someone whom i never doubt

for what i belive, that person will never be this way, never that bad, never that different.

...no one will feel the same way that i am feeling now...

as weird as i am, i took the highway, at night, in a black polo, on a bike.

i nearly got myself killed!!

Big, Gigantic Cargo Trucks drove past at full speed past me as i walk along the side of the road as i walk with my bike cause i really could not ride my bike, i will die.

Large Lorries with those big metalic boxes, oil tanks, pipes were just inches away from my arm as they Zoom past me. not to forget Buses....

well........in the state i am now.....

....I couldn't care less....

There is only one thing in my mind

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And so my life continues by faith